Deep Sadness

I can't hold this by my self.

I can't fix it as good as I can alone with my self.

This is truly made me stress all the time.

I don't know how to hold this.

I don't know where I have to tell this.

Because...

I LOST THEM ALREADY

There's someone just like try to close to me.

She asks me what happen with me because she

felt that there's something wrong with me.

I don't know how to tell this. I'm not a kind of person

who believe the other person that I don't really know.

But, she did all nice to me. I feel she is the only my friend so far.

Sometimes she make me feel like there's nothing happen.

But still, I don't want to tell her about my problem.

Maybe someday I can tell her about what I feel.

I feel so lonely, no one's care, no secret, no story, no plan,

no playing, no hang out together, no messages in my phone,

no "hello" from my friend in chat, no comments in my facebook,

no mention in my twitter, just no no no and NO.

Like I did something really wrong.

Like I'm the one who made this.

Am I did something wrong, guys?

Should I call you "guys" but you never think that

I'm not your friend anymore?

HOW COME!?

-Lorine Kalista Noor-