Goodbye Granpa, I'll Miss You

I'm a strong girl.

Even I'm crying, I always say "Stop

crying or everyone thinks you're such a

loser because you're crying." I do it. I always

do it so I can hold my tears to come out.

But not for this.

I don't care. My grandfather passed away.

It was a week ago and I can't believe this happen

to me. I went to Samarinda 2 months ago and I

met him. As usual, he always sick. He is so old.

73 years old
Look at him.
He is so skinny and my aunt took this
picture and I'm so glad I have his photo.
He doesn't like take a picture.



He is still in my heart.
I'm praying for him. Always and I
mention his name in the middle of my
pray. I miss him.

And poor me, I don't
have grandfather anymore. My grandfather
from my daddy's side was passed away to. A long
time ago when I was a little girl and my grandmother
from my mother's side was passed away too
and I just have a grandmother from my daddy's
side.

I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear
Every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you, sha la la la la
I miss you

-Lorine Kalista Noor-

Sadness

As you know. I really in love with my old camera.

Those camera is manual. So we need a roll film for it and also

the battery. I asked my father and he gave me

a couple battery for the old camera.

I felt so "Yes! finally I'll use this really cool camera"

but then what? The roll film that I've found is full and I can't

use it anymore.

I have no idea.

I fell really sad now. I want to say "Why the things

that I love is always have a bad ending like this? hate it so much!"

And this is more terrible and sucks.

My parents don't let me to use this cameras.

They said "Hey this is a modern decade. You have digital camera so

just use it." I just really sad to heard that.

I don't have money.

I never save money.

I never buy something with my own money.

I just ask my parents to buy it for me.

and the important thing is

I WANT A ROLL FILM FOR MY CAMERA!